New Obsession

Ok. Im starting to have a new obsession with a new singer. His name is Greyson Michael Chance. Ellen found him on YouTube. He is 12 years old. He sings, writes songs, plays instruments, performs. He is only 12 and he dose all that. He loves doing it. If I did that, I'd be scared outta my mind! He is cute and oh my god he is amazing at what he dose. Im starting to be obsessed with him. I play his songs all the time and My desktop on my computer is him and my phone has him and I downloaded his videos. I have obsessions really fast. I seriously need help with this HAHA.

Is Jeydon Wale A Good Role Model For Teenagers?

In my opinion Jeydon Wale is a good role model for teenagers. He is very nice to people. He's very respectful. Jeydon also loves to joke around. These are just a few reasons why I think Jeydon Wale is a good role model for teenagers.

Jeydon is nice to everybody. He dose have a potty mouth but that's OK, every teenager these days has a potty mouth. Jeydon is very respectful, he helps his fans, friends and family out. He has a great sense of humor, he is so funny. He jokes around all the time.

Every teenager should have Jeydon Wale as there role model. People who think Jeydon as a role model will have a sense of humor and become more respectful. People who thinks Jeydon isn't a good role model will have a sad unhappy life. These are just a few reasons why I think Jeydon Wale is a good role model for teenagers.

UPDATE

I've done something today that I hope will help me get over michael being gone. Me and my mom put all my michael stuff in a box and took down all my posters. hopefully that will help me out a little bit and try to get over him being gone.

I've stopped being a fan of Justin Bieber. He is the rudest person on this planet. In every interview he dose he says "I use twitter to conect with fans and talk to them. I even follow them to make there dreams come true" well thats a load of shit. I asked him on twitter so many times to follow me, i've even spammed his twitter when he was online and still no follow by justin bieber. thats not the only reason why he is rude, theres 1 more thing. he was on a radio station and a fan called and he hung up on her and told her to shut up. im sorry but nobody should say that to a fan. justin should get manners and learn how to treat fans the right way! i took down all his posters and im selling them on ebay and im also selling his shirts i have. i cant stand justin now. he is an asshole!

thats mostly all i've done. i think my mom told you about me being sick so i dont really gotta say anything about that. but yeah, i stoped likeing justin bieber and i put away all my mj stuff. now my room dosent even look like a room anymore. it looks boring. at the end of the month, im buying ink for my printer and im going to print out alot of pictures of jeydon wale and posting them all over my walls <3

Personal Essay

Hi Nicole,

I'll look forward to our visit Thursday. I've even picked up a book that I think you will like better than anything else I've brought you so far. In the meantime, I'd like to get you to try writing a personal essay.

Here are some characteristics of personal essays:

-Written in paragraphs (4-5 sentences/paragraph, minimum)
-Written from a 1st person point of view
-Fairly relaxed in tone
-they persuade the reader to a specific point of view
-they use facts and experiences to be persuasive
-1st paragraph (the introduction) contains an opinion statement (your main idea about the topic) AND two or three sentences that support your opinion statment.
-the paragraphs that follow are body paragraphs
-each body paragraph should focus on one fact or experience that supports your opinion statement
-your final paragraph, the conclusion, should briefly restate your main ideas from the whole essay.

See this sample on Why Dogs Make Better Pets Than Cats

Now, I'd like you to try to write a personal essay on the topic: Should boys and girls go to separate high schools?

Good luck, post comments if you have any questions,

CP

My Story

Chapter 1

"Now, for your entertainment gentlemen, here is Nicole!", Your name is called onto the stage as you walk onto it with terrified eyes, you absolutely hated this job, but it was the only thing that earned you enough money to fend for yourself. Strippers where such whores, and you promised yourself that you weren't gonna be like them, you would just work like them. You spot all the guys, watching and waiting for you to get on that pole. Your skimpy outfit is making all of them whoop and holler at you, which makes you want to cry. Showing off your body is not something your very fond of, but if you had to do it, then it had to be done. You walk up to that menacing pole, scared of what might happen if you don't give the men what the wanted. You give a big heavy sigh as you climb onto the pole, closing your eyes and holding back tears. You can hear everyone laugh and yell as you start the show. At first, your not that good. Everyone gets up to leave. Angry at every one's reaction, your determined to prove them wrong. You start working the pole as if you had done it a thousand times before. Everyone who turns to leave looks back at you, they stare at you in awe and sit right back down in there seats. You can hear them getting fired up, and you don't want to disappoint them. After a while of dancing and hearing men holler at you, you get off stage and watch the audience throw the money on stage. You smirk to yourself, satisfied at the way you showed them that your not just another newcomer. As you sit in your dressing room getting dressed into your regular clothes, the manager of the club comes up to you and smiles, "Hey Nicole, I have someone who wants to meet you.", Being only 16 years old, you wonder who would want to meet you. Just as your thoughts wonder, a teenage boy walks into the room. Your eyes widen as you examine the boy. You know his features all too well; His dark brown hair, his mesmerizing brown eyes and that adoring smile that all girls instantly fall for. His lips curve into a smile as he looks at you, "Hey, I'm Justin", You gasp as he says his name, not believing that your actually talking to THE Justin Bieber, "Yeah..I know who you are.", You manage to say through your teeth. What was a 16 year old boy doing in a strip club? The manager leaves you two to talk privately. You look over at Justin before you walk out the back door, "What are you doing here?", He looks at you with innocent eyes, which makes you stop from leaving, "What do you mean?", He says as kind as can be. You roll your eyes as you turn to look at him, "You know EXACTLY what I mean. What is a boy like you doing in a strip club?", His smile turns into a devilish grin in a second, which makes you nervous, "You didn't think I was all that innocent, did you?", He says with a wink. You feel your heart beat faster as he winks at you You shake your head as you out your hand on your hip, "So, why did you want to talk to me? You have a million girls who would kill to be in my place right now.", Although you were a HUGE fan of Justin's, you weren't gonna tell him that at a strip club. Suddenly, Justin starts moving closer to you, his eyes sincere and his smile fading, "I just wanted to make sure that I wasn't dreaming.", You look at him with a questionable look, "What does that mean?", He smiles, "To make sure that you weren't a figment of my imagination. Your just so beautiful, I had to get a closer look.", You can feel your cheeks getting hotter by the second, you can't believe that he's actually flirting with you, a stripper. You can feel his arms go onto your waist and his lips are inching closer to yours, "What are you doing?", Justin doesn't answer, he's staring at you, admiring every inch of your face, "Justin..?", You say again, with more feeling in your voice. But Justin still doesn't answer, you start to shake, not knowing what Justin is going to do next. You can feel your knee's getting weak as he moves closer to your face. Finally he...

　

Chapter 2

Pulled me closer to him and he softly touched my lips and said "Your lips are so smooth, baby" with a smile that all the girls would meant just looking at. "Justin, What is it you want from me? You can get any girl in the world, Why would you want to do this with me?" I didn't know why he was all over me, I couldn't understand why he would pick me out of all the other girls who would die to be with him. "I pick you because your the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life. Your perfection in my eyes. I can make you my One Less Lonely Girl" when he said that, He had a little smile but a smile when guys give girls when they are flirting. When I went to work today, I never would of expected to meet Justin Bieber in my dressing room at a strip club and I definitely wouldn't of expected Justin Bieber to even be talking to me like this or even touching me. "Aren't you dating a girl named Caitlin?" I heard rumors he was with a girl named Caitlin, So I had to ask him. "No, I'm not with her. I did date her when I was 13 but our relationship didn't work out. But me and her are still best friends." Justin was honest to me. I know he wasn't lieing because just the way he looked at me when he told me that was honesty. I trust him when he said that to me. I walked to the door because I was late for my show. "Wait Nicole, I have to talk to you." When Justin said that I was kind of nervous and didn't really know what to think at the time. "Hurry up Justin, I have to go out there. I'm late already" I was so late for my show, If I don't go out there soon, I wont get paid. "I'm here to ask you to come on the road with me and we can be in a relationship. I don't like being single and I think you are the most beautiful girl in the world. If you were my girl, I'd bring you in a magical dream world all the time and you will always be my princess." When Justin said that to me, My heart melted and I was speechless. I didn't know what to say. My face was blushing, I had a BIG smile on my face, My mind was all over the place. "Are you sure you want this, Justin?" I had to ask him for sure if he really wanted this. "Yes, I'm positive Nicole. I want you, Forever and always.".

　

Chapter 3

I'm on tour with Justin Bieber, Not many girls can say that. I sometimes think this is all a dream and that this really isn't happening. My life was always hard and I wasn't very popular in school, I had no friends and nobody to sit with at lunch. I was a loner in school. My family wasn't around most of the time when I was growing up. I only had myself. Now that I met Justin Bieber, My life has turned completely around to the better and nothing can take this away and ruin it all. -Justin walks in the door and gives me a hug- "Hey baby girl. I've missed you today." When he is around me, I always feel so warm inside and I feel loved for once in my life. "I've missed you too, Justin." Doesn't you all wish Justin was dating you and wish that Justin would just talk to you like he dose to me? I'm still amazed that Justin picked me, PICKED ME OUT OF 100000 GIRLS IN THE WORLD!. Justin bites his lip and walks slowly up to me, pulls me closer to him and puts his arms around me. Justin looks me in the eyes and smiles than gives me a soft, gentle kiss. He takes me to the master bedroom and lays me on the bed slowly and starts to kiss my neck all the way down to my stomach. OK, In my mind I was thinking, OK this really isn't happening, This is all a dream, PLEASE, NOBODY WAKE ME! But I realized that it wasn't a dream and this all was actually happening to me. Justin is a very gentle, loving, caring man. He is more mature than other 16 year old boys. Justin knows what he's doing and what he wants to accomplish in life. Other 16 year old are still in school, with no jobs. Justin is very mature for his age.

　

Chapter 4

Justin's Tour is almost finished. Its been a year with Justin on the road. This has been an experience that only happens once in a life time. I'm glad I was the one he picked to go on the road with him. Justin walked in the door "Baby, How would you feel if I bought us a house?" when Justin asked me that, I didn't know how to answer him without sounding like a complete idiot. I looked Justin in the eyes and started smiling and blushing. "Aw baby girl, you look so cute when you blush.". Justin walks up to me and holds me "Nicole, you are my one love, My one heart, My one life. I wont ever let you go.". I know he is only 17 and I'm 19 but WOW he is so romantic for a 16 year old and he knows how to make a girl feel loved and wanted. Not many guys knows how to do that for a girl they love or cared about. Justin is the most amazing boy I have ever met. My advice for you girls is don't ever give up on who you love and who you want to be with. Try and try to get your crush to notice you and they will, It might take time but trust me, It will happen. I was a Justin fan way before me and him started being together. I never thought that me and him would be a couple. I dreamt about it but I knew it wouldn't happen but just when I thought I gave up, What happens, JUSTIN SHOWED UP AT WHERE I WORKED AND ASKED FOR ME! I wont ever forget that day. That was the best day of my life. Now everyday is the best day of my life because I have Justin all the time.

　

Chapter 5

3 years went by so quickly. Justin is 20 now and I'm 21. We grew up fast. It feels like just yesterday we started dating and going on the road together. It doesn't even feel like its been 3 years. "Nicole, I have to ask you a question but please, Don't laugh" When Justin said that, I didn't know what to think. "OK, What is your question?" I wanted to know what he wanted to ask me. Justin pulls out an engagement ring, He goes down on 1 knee and looks up to me "Will you Marry me, Nicole Frances Gaudaur?". My jaw just fell, I couldn't breath, I couldn't stop blushing, I couldn't stop smiling. This was for sure the best day of my life. This stuff just doesn't happen to regular people like me. I grew up in a broken home with no friends, Justin Bieber is asking me, Out of all the girls, ME to marry him. This feels so unreal. I had to answer him fast before he changes his mind. "OH MY GOD! YES JUSTIN, I WILL MARRY YOU!" I pull him up and hug him and kiss him. I called up Justin's parents and my parents even though I don't talk to mine, I told them all that me and him are getting married. His parents was excited and happy for me and him. My parents are a different story, My parents doesn't care, They probably wont even show up at the wedding. It doesn't matter if they do or don't because Justin's family is my family now and they have always been there for me and Justin. Mine and Justin's wedding is going to be a small but cute wedding. We are just inviting his family and his friends. Justin's mother took me shopping for the perfect wedding dress and I just died, The dresses I've seen was so beautiful. I could never afford any of them though. Justin's mom picked out the most beautiful wedding dress, It was snow white with little diamonds, It was a no sleeve dress it comes up to my chest and down. This dress was so beautiful. It also had a vial, But I probably wont be wearing the vial because it was way to long. Justin called, "Nicole, Are you almost done? I want to see you before I have to go and record a new song" he said. "Yes, I'm almost done. I will be home in about a few minutes." I replied to him. Justin wants to see me 24/7. He is very protected of me, He worries about me allot of the time because he knows my past and he knows what I've been through. He is my best friend, lover, boyfriend, fiance, he is my everything. The big day is coming soon...

　

Chapter 6

Wedding Day, Justin is getting cold feet and so am I. We are both scared about whats going to happen and whats in life for me and him. We want to stay with each other for ever. Everybody that is getting married or did get married, You all know that its normal for you to get cold feet on the day of your wedding day. Usher was there at the wedding and so was Diddy, Everybody was there to support me and Justin. "Justin Bieber, You may speak now" the father of the church said. "Nicole, When I first met you when I was 16 in a strip club I honestly didn't know what I was getting myself into. When I walked in your dressing room and looked you in the eyes, I knew that you would be my wife someday and I knew in my heart that you were the girl for me. When you said yes when I asked you to marry me, I was so happy. Your the most perfect girl and the most beautiful girl I've ever met. You make me the luckiest man in the world. Without you, I don't know where I'd be right now. I wont ever let you go baby girl. Your my life.". I started to cry when he said that to me. What he said really touched my heart. I am so deeply in love with Justin Drew Bieber. When he said his speech, I honestly relized that this whole thing wasn't a dream and that he dose actually love me. Just knowing that makes me so happy and warm inside. At the dance we had at our wedding, Justin went on the stage and sang my favourite song "Stuck In The Moment" from his album "My World 2.0". He came off the stage and twirled me around like a prince would do to a princess in a fairy tale. When the song was over, He put the microphone down and looked me in the eyes and kissed me. Being with him makes me the happiest girl in the world. In the future me and him will make more memories and more happy times together.

THE END!

Orthodontist

I went to the orthodontist today. I need to get braces but I never knew my teeth were this bad. In order for me to get braces, I need to get jaw surgery. If I don't get this done, When I grow up my jaw will get pains all the time. I'm worried about getting the surgery because I have never gotten a surgery done on me and I'm afraid that they will dislocate my jaw into a really weird place or just mess it up. I'm scared that when they do it, I will wake up (they will put me to sleep but i'm scared that i will wake up during the surgery).

BEST 2 DAYS OF MY LIFE!!!!

TODAY WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY INTIER LIFE. OK SO THIS IS WHY, FEBRUARY 24 2010 IS WHEN IT ALL STARTED. JEYDON WALE REPLIED TO MY MESSAGE ON YOUTUBE ON THE 24TH OF FEBRUARY. WHEN HE REPLIED TO MY MESSAGE, I WAS SO HAPPY. I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, I WAS SPEECHLESS. I HAD TEARS COMING DOWN MY FACE BECAUSE I WAS JUST SO HAPPY HE REPLIED TO ME. ON MARCH 28 2010 HE REPLIED TO MY COMMENT I SENT HIM ON YOUTUBE. BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. I COULDN'T BELIEVE HE COMMENTED ME BACK. I COULDN'T EVEN BELIEVE HE MESSAGED ME BACK. THIS STUFF DOESN'T HAPPEN TO REGULAR PEOPLE LIKE ME. THIS STUFF NEVER HAPPENS TO ME. JEYDON MADE 2 DAYS OF MINE, PERFECT. JEYDON IS THE MOST AMAZING MAN THAT I'VE EVER KNOWN. HE TRULY LOVES HIS FANS. AND WE ALL LOVE HIM.

Twilight Saga: The Marrage!

Today was the first day of school in a new town. The town i'm in now is small but cute. Everybody knows everybody. The gym teacher made me do gym, i'm not very into gym or working out around people. Science was the worst part of the first day of school. Right when I walked in, a guy was staring at me and I walked in front of a fan and the guy covered his nose. I thought I smelled or he was just being a jerk. The teacher made me and him be lab partners. During Science all he kept doing was looking at me. It was weird. I did meet a couple people who were nice. I made a couple new friends, Its just that one guy that seems to hate me.

Monday came, The guy wasn't at school.
Weeks went by, still no show from the guy.
I was just about to give up. When I do see him again, I will demand to know what his problem was. Next day came, he was at school.

"Hello, i'm Edward Cullen and your Bella, right?" asked Edward
"Um, yeah" said Bella
"It's nice to meet you, Bella" said Edward
"It's nice to meet you too" said Bella
"How are you enjoying the weather?" asked Edward
"I don't really like it. Any cold, wet thing I don't really like" said Bella

Things seemed different for the past 3 weeks. He was talking to me and smiling. His eyes are black, his skin color is pale white and he sometimes speaks like he's from a different timezone. He's very strong and he is very protective of me.

I was looking up google and I had a book called "The Cold One" and everything in the book describes Edward. Strength, pale skin, eye changing color, cold skin. All those mean that he is dead, he is a vampire.

"I'm going to take you o my place tomorrow night" said Edward
"You want me to meet your family?" asked Bella
"Is that a problem?" asked Edward
"No, i'm just worried" said Bella
"Worried about what?" asked Edward
"Worried that i'll be the mean" said Bella
-Edward laughs-
"You wont, Bella. I will protect you" said Edward

Tomorrow night came. Edward's family seems so normal and non-vampire-ish. We ate spaghetti and we drank wine. His house is really big. I went to his room. He has no bed, I thought that was so weird.

"Bella, would you go to the prom with me?" asked Edward
"Sure" said Bella

Prom came, I didn't dance. Edward finally told me he loved me. It was magical. Prom was amazing. I wish the night would never end.

"Why won't you let me become a vampire?" asked Bella
"Because, you don't want this" said Edward
"Yes I do, I want to be with you forever" said Bella
"You don't know what your saying, Bella" said Edward

1 year has past. I'm still with Edward Cullen. I'm still not a vampire. I want him to bite me so I can become one of them. I'm scared that when I grow old, he wont want me anymore.

"Edward, can you please make me one of you?" asked Bella
"Can you give me...5 years?" asked Edward
"That's to long" said Bella
"Ok, 3 years" said Edward
-Bella signs-
"Your so stubborn" said Edward
"What are you waiting for?" asked Bella
"I have only 1 condition, if you want me to bite you myself, and live forever" said Edward
"That's what i'm asking" said Bella
-silence-
"Marry me, Bella" said Edward.

When Edward asked me to marry him, I was shocked. I am madly in love with him. I want to spend forever with him. I said "Yes" when he asked me to marry him.

3 years went by quick...

"Bella, When are you and Edward getting married?" asked Alice
"We haven't set a date yet" said Bella
"Oh, ok. You have been a part of our family since you first started dating my brother. We care about you a lot" said Alice
"Thanks, I care about you all too" said Bella

I saw Edward yesterday. He picked a day for us to get married. We are getting married on Sunday.

"Big day today" said Edward
"Yea, it is" said Bella
"You excited?" asked Edward
"Yea, I am extremely excited" said Bella
"So, you still want to become a vampire?" asked Edward
"Yes, I do" said Bella
"Ok, tonight I will do it" said Edward
-Bella smiles-

The day went by so quick. I'm officially Mrs. Cullen now. I'm so happy. I'm also happy now that i'm a vampire now. Now I can be with him forever.

Edward makes me the happiest girl in the world.

"Your my life, my world, my everything. I love you so much Bella" said Edward
"I loved you since I seen you on the first day of school. Your my everything and more" said Bella

When I moved to forks, I never knew this all would happen. I never would of thought that I would find my soul mate. I love my life. I wouldn't change a thing about it. My life is perfect now that I have Edward in it forever. I love him so much.


THE END!!!

First Person Narrative

Dear Usher

Let me tell you the day I had with a 4 year old. A fan sent me a video link on Twitter and when I watched it I seen a little girl crying because she said she loved me so much, she wouldn't stop crying.

When I saw the video, I wanted to go visit the girl and surprise her. So, I arrived at her house and her mother answered the door. The little girl was still sleeping. The little girl's mother said I could go wake her up and surprise her.

I opened the door of the little girl's bedroom and jumped on her bed and said "SURPRISE!". The little girl was so happy to see me. I went downstairs and made the little girl breakfast, I made her heart shapped pancakes and eggs. I sat down and put her on my lap and we watched "Spiderman" together.

I took the little girl shopping, I bought her anything she wanted. We went to get some lunch, We ate McDonald's. Than we went back to her house and took a lot of pictures together.

It was a long day, I'm glad I did it. I'm happy now that I made a little girl's dream come true.

Peace Out,
Justin Bieber

Update

This blog is going to be short kind of.
Ok, Alot has been going on with me.
I've been sick for almost a full month.
My theeth has been hurting me for some time now.
Im better sort of, I still have a caugh.
My teeth are fine now, and I dont feel dizzy anymore.
Im doing alright now.

I was talking to Mike lastnigh (the guy that i was talking about in one of my blogs)
My first love Mike.
Well, we've been talking and it felt like we are back to the good ol' days again.
It feels really good.
He said when he gets money he is going to visit me and he said he was going to ask me something.
He said he was going to ask me to marry him.
I known him since 2006.
Im obviously going to say yes to the man I really love and turely care about.
I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
We talked all night.
It felt like we never split up or stopped talking for months.
It feels really good to have him back in my life again.
I missed him so much.

Well thats the update of whats been going on with my life lately.

Jeydon Is Faking!

Justin Bieber wasn't really into singing when he was younger. He was more into hockey and soccer. Justin never thought he would become music's biggest star in 2009. It's a unbelievable story how Justin got discovered. Well, Justin's mother put videos up on YouTube of Justin singing and playing the drums. Justin got so many hits on his videos. Justin's manager Scooter told Usher about Justin and Usher saw Justin's videos on YouTube and Usher flew Justin and his mom out to Atlanta Georgia to sign a recording contract. Now it's 2010 and Justin is one of the biggest stars on TV. Their is also another guy on YouTube and his name is Jeydon Wale. Jeydon isn't famous in the public eye yet. He is a YouTube sensation. Jeydon makes videos of him acting stupid, rapping, acting like other celebrities. He wants to become an actor. He has so many hits on YouTube, Just like Justin Bieber. And Strangely enough, Jeydon looks like Justin. The only difference is, Jeydon is 18 years old and Justin is 15 years old.

Justin went home to his hometown, Stratford Ontario to see his friends and family. Justin knew about Jeydon and how they looked alike. Justin was walking around with his friends and all of a sudden, fans came running up to him. They were asking him for his autograph. That was all fine until Jeydon showed up out of nowhere. Jeydon walked up to the fans and told them that, that wasn't the real Justin and told them he was the real one. Fans believed him because he looked like Justin. Justin got so mad but he didn't show it, he just walked away. But than Jeydon did the same thing again but at Justin's concert. Justin's manager thought Jeydon was Justin and Jeydon went along with it and he got to perform 1 song but it wasn't a Justin song, it was one of Jeydon's original songs. Jeydon raps so now all Justin's fans think he is a rapper now. After the 1 song was over, Justin showed up and went on the stage where Jeydon was and proved to the fans that Jeydon was a fake. Justin performed "Baby" and everybody believed Justin. But their was no arguing about Justin and Jeydon looking alike. Justin went back home and their was something wrong because it had an awful smell to his house. It smelled like dog poop. Justin knew who did this, it was Jeydon Wale. Jeydon wanted to get back at Justin because of what Justin did to him on stage in front of thousands of fans. So Justin took charge and called the cops and told the cops about Jeydon and what he has been doing. The cops finally stopped the fighting between Justin and Jeydon. But the minute the cops left Justin's house, Jeydon and Justin made an understanding. More like an agreement. When Justin gets sick, Jeydon can take his place but Jeydon has to perform Justin's songs instead of his own. Jeydon agreed to everything.

What Jeydon did at the begging was wrong. Nobody should fake as being somebody else. Justin knew that from the beginning. Justin did the right thing to do, he did the 3 steps on how to get a poser off his back. Jeydon will still be faking as Justin but that's only when Justin gets sick or something. Now that all the fighting between Justin and Jeydon is done, they are friends. Not best friends yet, but they are friends.

Students Make Important Discovery

On Tuesday, March 9, 2010 3 students from Niagara Collage found the cure for cancer. Michael Jackson, Katie Hanson, and Nicole Gaudaur was assigned a project to do for their class to find a cure for some type of illness or try to find a cure. The 3 students researched on the net and they were experimenting things and they found the cure for cancer. The 3 students took there findings to the teacher and now the 3 students are hero's. The Niagara General Hospital has the 3 students picture on the wall. The teacher of the 3 students made a statement, "These kids are amazing of what they have found and what they have done, This is history. This is the one thing nobody will forget.". The hospital gave the students, Michael, Katie, and Nicole $6000 for their information for the cure of cancer.

Worst Day Of My Life!!!!

Yesterday was the worst day of my life.

When I woke up at 9:00am I felt sick so I went to the bathroom and pucked in the sink.
I felt dizzy and I couldn't breath well so I fainted in the bathroom with the door locked.
My sister was in bed sleeping, My mother wasn't home, My other sister was with my mom so that being said, Nobody was there to do anything about me being fainted.
I finally had enough strength to get up off the floor and get out of the bathroom BUT that didn't go so well because in the hallway, I felt dizzy again and I didn't want to fall so I tried to get a good grip of the wall but somehow, I fell and hit my face off the corner of the wall in the hallway and just was laying there because I couldn't move and I kept trying to keep my breath going.
My sister Jodi kept calling, I couldn't answer it. My sister Ashley finally woke up and she saw me on the floor. She told Jodi "Nicole is on the floor, She fainted. COME HOME!" So luckily my mom and Jodi came home BUT it wasn't soon enough. My sister Ashley kept telling me to get changed because I was going to the hospital. I couldn't move so I already knew I couldn't get changed but Ashley doesn't really understand that. She didn't really care because she knew I was on the floor and she was trying to make me get changed (she wasn't even going to help me). The only good thing she did was tell my sister to come home.

The ambulance came, They took me to the hospital. Me and my mom waited there for about 5 hours just to see a doctor and waited 2 hours just to get things checked out. We were there all day. We finally came back home around 10:00pm. The doctor had to put an IV in my vains. It hurt so much, I still have a mark on my hand on where they put the IV in. The arm they put the IV in was so cold, It felt like ice. My mom had an IV in her before but her arm was never this cold so my mom complained and told the doctor but obviously, The doctor just said it was normal (yea right!). They had to do x-rays on me and give me needles. They checked everything to see if I was OK. Soon enough, The doctor said that I wasn't sick. It was just my throat and that It will get better in a few weeks. I asked him about my fainting and he just told me that its normal for someone to faint while feeling dizzy and stuff. I don't think that's normal but hey what do I know!

Me and my mom went home and we watched a movie and we had Chinese food. I couldn't eat that much so my mom gave me a little bit.

Yesterday was the worst day of my life.
I honestly thought I was going to die!!!

Break Up's and Relationship Problems I've Had

This might be pointless to read or you might not care what this is about BUT you said I can write about anything on my mind, so that's what I'm going to do.

This blog will be about my perfect guy that I need to find and the heartbreaks I've been through in the past.

Lets start with the heartbreaks.

My first heartbreak was during 2005-2006 and it went on through 2009.
I created an account on MyCrib.net not knowing that I would find someone I truly cared about and thought they cared about me as well.
His name was Michael Christopher Casamassina.
I still remember our first conversation on MyCrib.net, It was in 2005 or 2006.
He messaged me saying "Another Chris Brown Fan?", At the time, I was obsessed with Chris Brown and my MyCrib was full of Chris Brown stuff.
After he messaged me saying that, We just started getting really close with each other.
He lives in Baltimore, Maryland. Its about 7 hour drive from Canada, I think.
I have never met him in person. We always chatted on MyCrib, MSN, Yahoo, AIM, and MySpace/Facebook. We talked on the phone, went on web cam with each other. I wrote him a song in 2007 but I don't remember it nor do I have it anymore. We were always on and off again. The first few months we were talking, I just fell in love with him. But then all the shit started happening. All these random girls adding me or message me saying "Ooh, Take my boyfriend off your page, bitch!" or they would say "Mike is dating me, NOT YOU!" so i got mad and confirmed this to him, He denied it. But then every single day different girls were doing the same thing and it just never stopped. So I kept blocking them and stuff like that. He still Denys it till this day. I know he was cheating. I know Mike. I know how he is. But even though he cheated on me, I still love him. We don't talk as much as we used to, But I think its because he just doesn't care about anybody but himself. He was my first love. He sent me songs from YouTube and he dedicated them to me and he told me secrets that he never told anybody before. We were always so open until the drama happened.

I'm scared to become in a relationship again because I don't want to get hurt again.
The way Mike hurt me was honestly killing me.
I kept starving myself every time he cheated or broke up with me on the phone.
But when we got back together I was fine.
It got so bad that I had to go to the hospital because I was going NUTS!
I honestly couldn't eat, i was crying every day and every night, i couldn't think straight.
It got really bad.

Now lets go to the perfect guy section of this blog.

OK the perfect guy for me is someone who doesn't cheat or lie. I dislike guys who cheat. I've been through that and it doesn't feel good. It makes you feel like your not important and that nobody loves you. You feel like you just want to die and you feel humiliated when guys cheat on you or lie to you. Its not a good feeling at all. Guys should really care about a girl. If a guy says "I Love You" they should mean it. They should mean the words when they say "I Love You" to a girl. They shouldn't just say it for the hell of it because in the end the girl will find out that the guy is lieing about it and then the girl will go into depression like how I was.
If a girl wants to spend time with her friends, Its not right for the boyfriend to ask his girlfriend questions about where she was and who she was with because its non of his business. If she wants to go out for a few hours with her family or friends she has the right to. But if her boyfriend has suspicions that the girl is seeing someone else then sure, he has the right to confront her but not spy and ask questions constantly.
The perfect guy for me would have to be someone who is comfortable being themselves and someone who is a MJ fanatic like me. I dated a lot of MJ haters and it just doesn't work out. I can not date an MJ hater. I've tried, God knows I tried but I just cant do it.
I cant lie, I'm shallow. I date people who are cute even though they are such assholes. I don't date ugly people and I think that's the main problem. I don't want to be shallow anymore. I want to love someone for who they are inside and not because of there looks. Mike was cute, and he was honest at first but when the drama started happening he just changed and my feelings for him just slowly faded away. I do still love him. I do still try to find someone that looks like him but I just cant picture myself being with someone other then him. I know he hurt me really bad but I just cant stop loving him. We have history together. I cant forget about him I will never forget about him.

Worse Birthday Party Ever!

I had my Birthday Party on Friday 19th 2010.
It didn't even feel like it was my party because everybody in my family was having fun except for me.
I couldn't listen to my music because they were putting on their music.
I don't drink because I choose not to but they were drinking all night.
They made me put headphones on so I could listen to my music.
They all were having a wonderful time except for me, THE BIRTHDAY GIRL!
I was upset.
My mother was even having a good time and I don't think she understood how I was feeling.
She was drunk anyways, So its not like she would care.

My birthday party was the worse I've ever had in my life.
I had no fun, what so ever!
I felt left out of everything they were doing.
And I didn't even know half the people they brought over.
I was sitting on the couch alone while they were all dancing and singing and having a ball.

It was rude what they did.
I hated my party.
Hopefully next year will be different!

My Birthday

Today is my birthday, As you may already know.
I woke up at 11:00pm and went to my sister's house to use her computer.
I designed a picture of Jeydon Wale and I made a video of Jeydon Wale.
I uploaded it on MySpace, Facebook, and YouTube.

As I mentioned already, Its my birthday.
I'm 18 years old today.
The first person to say "Happy Birthday" to me was a singer on MySpace named "Lethal".
He was the FIRST person to say the words "Happy Birthday" to me.
I messaged a lot of singers/friends on my accounts to say Happy Birthday to me and I got nothing from them.
Lethal is famous and he stopped whatever he was doing at the time to say "Happy Birthday" to me, A fan!

That's all I wanted to say...
I just thought that was weird that Lethal did that and nobody else did yet.

The Boy

I've known this boy for years, Since I was 6 years old or 5. We were best friends until I moved away with my mother. We lost contact for years. At the end of 2009, Before the new year came. Me and him got back into talking again. I thought it was all a dream and that this wasn't happening. My sister worked with his mother at Wendy's and he went there to buy something to eat, Well my sister was talking to him asking him if he remembered ME and he said "Yeah, I remember Nicole." then he asked my sister to ask me to add him to Facebook. I obviously did because I missed talking to him. We chatted on Facebook the next day. He said he always had a crush on me and that he never told anybody before. I had a crush on him also. I had a crush on him for years. When we were little we used to spend 24/7 together. When we started hanging out again at the end of 2009, I don't even know what happened but we just started dating. He took me to the movies and took me to a restaurant and bought me stuff. I'm not the kind of girl who likes there boyfriends to buy them stuff because I always feel guilty and that I did something bad. I talked to him about it, He didn't really understand though. When we were younger we had so much in common, But after we stopped talking I guess we both changed BIG TIME. We have nothing in common anymore. I just wish we never stopped talking and that we still had things in common. I do talk to him sometimes but not as much because of the fact he is an MJ hater and I dint talk to MJ haters. A couple days ago, He messaged me on MSN telling me that after he is finished school he was going to go to the Army. I didn't know what to say to that because I was scared and I still am scared. I dint want him going there because I don't want him dieing or getting hurt. Even though me and him isn't dating anymore doesn't mean I don't care about him. I known him for years, Since I was 6 years old or 5. I cant see him going to the Army. I cant be happy for him. I don't want to lose him again. That's going to kill me. Not literally but it will break my heart knowing that he is over there and might be dead. I don't want to talk to him on MSN anymore because I dint want him telling me he is going or the day he is going because then I will start to cry. Me and him had so many good times when we were younger. Those memories wont ever leave or fade away. I will always love him. NO MATTER WHAT! I haven't told him any of this stuff and I don't want to because he wont listen or believe me anyways, I don't think.

Anyways, That's all I wanted to say. BYE.

Earth Poem by Michael Jackson

This poem is beautiful.

Michael loved the world so much and he wanted all of us to heal the world with him.

This poem really touched my heart when I heard it.

Planet Earth, my home, my place
A capricious anomaly in the sea of space
Planet Earth are you just
Floating by, a cloud of dust
A minor globe, about to bust
A piece of metal bound to rust
A speck of matter in a mindless void
A lonely spacship, a large asteroid
Cold as a rock without a hue
Held together with a bit of glue
Something tells me this isn't true
You are my sweetheart soft and blue
Do you care, have you a part
In the deepest emotions of my own heart
Tender with breezes caressing and whole
Alive with music, haunting my soul.
In my veins I've felt the mystery
Of corridors of time, books of hisotry
Life songs of ages throbbing in my blood
Have danced the rhythm of the tide and flood
Your misty clouds, your electric storm
Were turbulent tempests in my own form
I've licked the salt, the bitter, the sweet
Of every encounter, of passion, of heat
Your riotous color, your fragrance, your taste
Have thrilled my senses beyond all haste
In your beuaty, I've known the how
Of timeless bliss, this moment of now
Planet Earth are you just
Floating by, a cloud of dust
A minor globe, about to bust
A piece of metal bound to rust
A speck of matter in a mindless void
A lonely spacship, a large asteroid
Cold as a rock without a hue
Held together with a bit of glue
Something tells me this isn't true
You are my sweetheart gentle and blue
Do you care, have you a part
In the deepest emotions of my own heart
Tender with breezes caressing and whole
Alive with music, haunting my soul.
Planet Earth, gentle and blue
With all my heart, I love you.

MJ Poem I wrote

When MJ moonwalked for the first time on Motown 25
We all knew he was going to be a legend for all time
June 25th 2009 was a heartbreaking day
Mike had died and left all his fans behind
He knew we all loved him
He knew he was an idol to everybody
I just look up in the sky now and i wonder
Why did you have to go SO soon
I seen on YouTube a video of MJ’s spirit in Neverland
It made me realize that he had some unfinished business
I believe he wants to get revenge to all the people that hurt him
People say he is a ghost but i say
He isn't a ghost
He wanted to be in the place he loved the most

The saddest day of my life.

I still remember the day when Michael Jackson died. I found out in the afternoon of June 25th 2009. I was sleeping, My mom woke me up and said "Nicole, I have bad news" I didn't think anything of it so I said "What did I do now?" and then she said "Nothing, You didn't do anything." then I said "Ok then whats the bad news?", My mother said "Michael had just died". My heart STOPPED. I couldn't speak, I was speechless. I didn't know how to react. I was like "No way, He didn't die. Don't joke around like that mom" and she said "No seriously, He just died" then she put on the news. It was true, He had died. I cried for 6 months, I'm still crying. My heart is broken. I sometimes don't know what to do anymore. Michael Jackson was my everything, He was a part of me. Now that he is gone, Apart of me went with him as well. June 25th 2009 will be known for many many years. That was the day the biggest most powerful artist died. He was only 50 years old and he passed away, GONE TO SOON. I miss him more and more each day. There isn't a day that go's by that I don't think about him. He is always on my mind. He will always be in my heart. We miss you Michael. Rest In Peace baby!

Freedom Writers

1. Why do you think Mrs. Martin and Mr. Pierce chose this film for this class? I think Mr. Martin and Mrs. Martin chose this film for this class because this film is about students that had a rough life growing up. In the movie "Freedom Writers" some of the students were getting beat by their parents or getting raped by their parents or their family members. This film is about students going to school and writing down in a journal about what happened in their life's and what challenges they had to face. When the students handed them into the teacher, Nobody else read it, The only person who was reading the journals was their teacher in the film. Their are a lot of kids in high school that gets raped and beat by family members and they don't talk about it. This film shows how teachers can help out and try to make the kids save from those mean families.



2. Did watching this film change the way you think about high school or teachers or education?Explain. I think it had changed the way I think about high school, teachers, and education. High school is a place where you can feel safe in, or any school in that matter. If your home isn't save and you don't feel comfortable in your own home you should talk to somebody like a teacher at school and they will help you. No child should feel unsafe in their own home. Education is the most important thing a child should have because they need an education to become what they want to be when they are grown up.



3. Was any part of the movie confusing? If so, what question(s) about the movie would you like answered? This movie wasn't confusing for me only because the film "Freedom Writers" is easy to understand if you know somebody that has been in trouble or in a unsafe place. I had a friend back when I was 5 and she used to get raped and beat by her father. She told me not to tell anybody. I had to tell somebody. I told my dad and he at the time was friends with my friend's father so my dad talked to him about it and my friend's father lied about the whole thing. But I know my friend wouldn't say that she was raped and beat if she really didn't. She wasn't like that. When I watched the movie "Freedom Writers" I was thinking to myself "wow, why couldn't my friend do this when she was younger and or told somebody like a teacher".



4. At what point did the students start learning from their teacher? What changed? It was at the middle of the movie. At the beginning, The students always had somebody in their life but the people always got up and left them. Their teacher was always their. The students didn't realize this until the teacher started to catch their attention and gain their trust.



5. Does seeing this film make you feel any differently about your own opportunities in high school or this class. I don't honestly think I feel any differently about my own opportunities in high school. Like I said in question number 3, I watched the film and thought about my friend and what she went through as a child.



6. Is Freedom Writers a good movie? What did (or didn't) you like about it? I liked it. The film was inspiring and I wish their was a class where students can write what happened to them in the past (good or bad) and just wrote what was on their minds. I bet if their was a class like that at Stamford, A lot of kids would be in it.